Help please ?!!? i don't know what to do anymore):?

Savannah, I am sorry for your loss. I would recommend Christian counseling to start with. They may offer some medicine to help too. I would reach out to some others. I see that C Sunshine has offered to talk. This would be a great step, as she knows what you are going through, and I am sure has some very good advice for you. I will be praying for you.