Have you ever had bad insomnia because of bad anxiety and racing thoughts & not slept all night ?

whatever you do, if you ever take meds for this, dont ever stop taking them, i had withdrawals and i did not sleep for literally three months except one hour every week when they knocked me out with tablets. whatever you are going thru now is nothing compared to withdrawals. dont expect the mental health services to save you, they cant, get yourself a book on cbt called "mind over mood" think of things you like, find friends over the internet or in real life. get your disability paid straight into your account and get your bills paid direct debit. arrange it tomorrow. find things you like to do, dont wait for a doctor to save you, they cant. your will to survive can.